My Story...grass is greener (pt 2)

[flowmom]

nsw, you need to calm down. Seriously, you don't sound stable. If you want your D3 to be part of your life it's a necessity that you calm down. You can't control your W's craziness, but you can do something about yourself. And no matter how crazy she is, your sitch won't be crazy if you stop throwing fuel on the fire.

I don't understand how you can block your W's number? I feel that it's really important that H and I always be able to contact one another in case of an emergency or change of plans involving the children.

I remember you had some reason for not going to your IC right away, but I suggest that you go to someone else ASAP. And go to your doctor to discuss your symptoms. Dealing with the pain of separation is no picnic...I understand that. I've lost 16 lbs in the last month and a half. But you can't let the drama of your sitch take over.

Ask yourself what kind of father you want to be. That's a really good starting point for you. My little 3 year old girl is really feeling the pain of the separation. She can't put it in words, but I can see the stress in her behaviour. She needs me to be calm, to be present with her, to act normal around H, to be an example of strength in adversity, etc. And every day I wake up and vow to be there for my little ones. Being there for them helps me.