patpat has been absent. I am home today, thought I drop in and update....
Been working alot mostly. Hangin with friends and running the streets. Meeting people and laughing alot of late.
Past Thursday W (in her new apartment with OM) had a drug episode and OM did not like it. W freaked at OM's reaction. Lucy has some splaining to do!!!
I guess she never told OM.
W called me Friday apologizing for all the crap she has put me thru past 2 years and says she now knows that my efforts to help led to most of our prob's because she was choosing drugs over R and the BS that came with it.
W stated she did not want to mess up job, or overdose and die. Stated she had some fixing to do in her life and R was one of them. Hmmmmm.....
What to do?
I told W that she had a lot of healing and personal growing to do. That I did not want her back because she had a hard time financially, or OM left her, or she had feelings of loss etc.... that only when she was clean, sober and stable would I consider, and that would be a big if, because I have changed as well.
I told W I wanted D. That maybe down road things could and would possibly be better for us and we could consider things at that time. W did not say but I think W is still with OM. I did not ask.
I am weighing my options and am thinking about filing myself. Prob. will...
W says she is holding off on D. It would be up to me.
I have a lot to think about....
Last edited by patpat; 02/14/1006:04 AM.
Me 43 / W 40 T 29 / M 15 S-18 11/4/09-ILYBINILWY 11/10/09-Separated 12/1/09-W admitted EA 12/5/09-W admitted PA 12/24/09 W say "I love you"
"A GOOD MARRIAGE IS NOT ONE WHERE PERFECTION REIGNS"
