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[awest1217]

Thanks. H did text at 11 asking if we were still doing something. I was hoping we would do an all day thing, but it was better than nothing. He came over and I right away gave him a big hug. He said he slept all night and felt better (has a head cold that has been bothering him for a few days). We did lunch, played wii, etc. We cuddled, kissed. It was nice. We then went to H's grandma's for lobster. It was good and H asked if I wanted to go see the movie tonight. I said ok, but the whole time he kept saying we don't have to go if you don't want to. I just kept telling him, if I didn't want to go I would have said no. I really want to be here with you.

The movie was good. I tried to hold H's hand twice, but he didn't go for it. That is ok though. It was very hot and he was figety from it being stuffy, which bothered his nose, and the seats were uncomfortable. He would lean over and tell me stuff about the differences with the book and would look at me and I could see hints of love in his eyes.

He then said something about going to Dairy Queen for ice cream. I went to the wrong one so it ruined those plans because I bypassed the one he was thinking of becuase I didn't see it so I think he thought I didn't want to go, when I really did, but no big deal. We got S and went home. I told H I really enjoyed it and sent a text letting him know I had a lot of fun and it meant a lot to me.

I am taking Lucky's advice, before reading it, and just trying to have fun with weekend and really reconnect. He brought up some stuff about where to put his stuff when he comes home. I talked about stuff like that as well. All very general and nonconfrontational so that was good. I think he just understood more that I am wanting him to come home and am thinking about it. I just have to somehow find the fine line between showing the love and making sure the boundaries are not being crossed....so hard, and I totally don't know how to do it. I know how with S because he can't go anywhere, but H, I don't want to hurt the progress by restating as he would put it "what he already knows". Maybe I will just ask when he wants to move in and about MC. That way I am not bringing up OW. He did talk about her tonight, but I was sure to change the subject quickly, and not indulge the little bait.