I happened to be reading over the boards and saw your thread...I read through it all however one statement caused me to log in (even though I am taking a self-imposed break lol).
Originally Posted By: columbianchick
Only he knows why he refuses treatment
I have bipolar, was diagnosed 20 years ago and have been off and on (more off - but now on) meds since then...
I can't speak for your H however I can tell you I refused treatment because it made me feel weak as a person and yes I was also institutionalized as well...
To be labeled as a bipolar person is almost like a death sentence...
To be told you may have to take mood altering drugs the rest of your life because you can't function as a "normal" human being is a horrible blow to anyone...
Once people know, basically you become the disease and cease to be a person...
Happy - She must be manic, Sad - She must be depressed, Angry - She must not be taking her meds correctly etc...
Every normal human emotion you have, we have it times a thousand...
It is a daily fight to not allow the disease to over take you...
It is there lurking at every turn and you never know when or which portion of it is going to hit you next...
Will it be mania? A happiness so high, I can't even form a complete sentence because my mind is racing...
Will it be depression? A sadness so suffocating, you feel the only way to lift it is to end it all...
Will it be anger? A rage so full of hate and coldness that the very littlest thing can set you off and turn even the calmest person into a certifiable lunatic.
Originally Posted By: columbianchick
I guess it's easier for him to get up and run every single time he feels stress.
Maybe it is easier for him to not include you/your family in the hell he is living within his own mind.
Not to say it is right because it isn't...
Even though I knew I had it, I wouldn't face it...
If I got to bad through the years, I would see my Dr., take my meds for a few months and then go right back off of them...
I thought I could control it on my own and your H may just be thinking the same thing.
(((Hugs)))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
