Moving on with my life!

[Startingover2]

so when you were at the park, was that his time to see baby? I ask because you offered to go home, so I'm hoping it was his time.

hope you have a great time at the zoo!!!

your doing great!

Yes it was approaching his time. The park is only 10 minutes away so I figured if he wanted to see her at home we could be back in a few minutes. The new me wouldn't have offered if it wasn't his time. It took some pressure off of him being here.

He cancelled his visit this morning so baby and I headed to the zoo. It was really fun, but kind of crowded. I forgot it was a holiday weekend and we usually go during the week anyway. She had a good time though.

[S.T. _I Made It!]

that's awesome! so glad you had fun!

I think that was great how you did the park thing. good for you

[Startingover2]

Happy Valentine's Day!

I am not devastated at being alone this Valentine's yet again. The last 3 VD's have been horrible and this year I really don't care. Wow!

Baby and I are going to church and then a friend may come by later. D18 is going out with her bf to a nice dinner tonight and S16 is out of town for the weekend. I got them some candy.

I am really making progress and motivated in my studies lately. It was so hard to make myself get up at 4:30 or 5:00 for a long time and now its much easier. I know I am getting closer and hope to be done by late spring. I met a woman at MOPS the other day that has been an MT for 15 years from home and works for a local hospital chain from home. She works from 6-midnite, but she also has a husband to take over kid duties when he gets home so she can work. I will need to be a bit more creative.

Hope everyone has a good Valentine's Day <3

[Startingover2]

Almost got down just a bit ago.

Exh sent a text asking to come by to drop off babys Vday gift. We were out and about and drove by him in town. He had us stop. He got her a rose and a card. Why? She can't read, and a rose means nothing to her other than I have to not let her eat it! He wants me to hang it upside down in her room. Yeah...I so am not going to look at that every day. I saw what looked like a dozen or more red roses sitting on the seat of his truck. I can guess who those are for. Loser.

I felt a twinge there and let it bother me for an hour but now am doing better.

[S.T. _I Made It!]

I'm sorry, why don't you smash the flower in a book and save it somewhere else. smashing it might make you feel better too! lol

well, just remember what OW has. it isn't much.

again, your H doesn't know how to be a dad to a baby. and I'm sure he still wants you to want him.

[Startingover2]

HAHA! I would love to smash that rose somewhere. Still hard to believe he gave a not even 2 year old a rose. Again, it was exh thinking how good he looked to give a gift, no thought into what a toddler would want.

I put the card in the box with all of her other things she can pick through later and put the flower up in her closet in a book.

Hoping to get some more yard work done today. Sun is out and we love to be outside. Helps me so much with my attitude.

Glad VDay is over!!!!

[K4D]

I'm with you. I am glad V-Day is over as well. Life can get back to normal now. Enjoy that day outside today.

Kevin

[Startingover2]

Text at 4:15 telling me he wasn't going to make it. Baby and I were down by the river hanging out and she was loving throwing rocks in the shallow part. Beautiful day in the high 70's.

[S.T. _I Made It!]

I love how your mention of H is so brief and you go right into how your day is with baby. definitely shows where your mind is more now, and why your doing so much better.

[Startingover2]

I love how your mention of H is so brief and you go right into how your day is with baby. definitely shows where your mind is more now, and why your doing so much better.

I think this is because there is so little interaction between exh and I lately. There is very little drama going on. I believe this is due to a few things...me having some boundaries and him getting back with MGF. Since that happened he has really backed off. Been nice for me, but really sad for baby when you think about it. I am not complaining though and hope it stays this way. He is no where near capeable of being a normal dad.