feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

thanks confusedwife...i appreciate that

I know my thread is long and not sure how to paste and start new one.

Last night H came in and said, "I'm home" - first time in a long time he's talk to me when he comes in. He came in at 8:20 still late for a Friday but whatever. He text my son that he was still at office at 5:00. I got upset and text him, "why are you texting S you should be texting me." He replied with a "I don't wanna fight" crap. He's used that excuse and it's old already. I have made sure not to be confrontational so it's an excuse.

He said, "oh the olympics are on" I didn't say anything. I grabbed a beer and went to sit in the back room with my S. He came back there and said, "aren't you gonna watch the olympics?" I said, "well I wanted to." (but not sitting in there with him it's too uncomfortable)

So...I sat and talked with S for about another 30 mins and when I came out he said, "why did it take you so long to come out?" I said, "whatta u mean?" He had just put his blackberry in his pocket and I looked at him and shook my head. I think he just made that comment because he was a little nervous that he was texting. Sorry for those unmindreader people but that's my H.

Ok well, this morning has been so awkward. He and I don't communicate unless we have to. He said, "what time is friends' party?" I said, "oh you're gonna go?" He said, well friend said I'd better be there. It's just bad all the way around. I don't want to go to a party with someone who is a stranger to me and introduce him as my husband.

We'll see how today goes...I don't know. This is really weird. I've never felt more further away than ever. He is making a huge mistake by creating more a division as time goes by.

Luv wants to Love again...maybe it's time for a new one.