I was moved to a new position in the dealership today.
I wanted to stay in sales to prove myself, but those people have been so good to me, ok I'll move, think it could be helpful, keeping me busy.Besides to go from the level I was at and be mentally, emotionally crushed, I am stronger inside and definately a lot more empathetic, but I am not acting or looking as strong as use to. I am a lot more quiet or soft spoken person and yes I've sold a couple cars, but I'm a shell of the salesperson I was.
BUT I AM BETTER OR BETTER INTENTIONED IN OTHER AREAS,so part of me says you know what 'em.
Guess what I'm trying to say is I am more sane and know what's right more than ever, just have so much bs to overcome, this is not going to be an easy climb and my temples just pound, I have had this crazy feeling in my head since the night she asked me to leave.
I know I'm nailing it in son's life and parents of bb team like me a lot. Parent told me tonight she has just as much fun watching me as watching the game, she said a lot of parents enjoy watching, no I'm not cocky or rude OK SO I'VE HAD A COUPLE TECHNICALS and warnings.Not Bob Knight stuff, just I use what made me successful professionally and turned it towards the game and kids a stunt i pulled during last wks game, my wife laughed. I SAW HER! I did enjoy flipping her off in that you know scratch your head while on the sidelines that only one knew was me.I do crack myself up sometimes.Kids call it embarrassing. For example yesterday D was berating me, so I acted like I got stabbed in the chest and laid down in public, people walked around me, are you ok, yeah i'm fine, my daughter over there stabbed me in the heart.She walked over and I yelled help she's going to kick me while I'm down.:)
I'm going to be in the detail dept. Allows me the flexibility I need, my mind like I just posted still isn't right, I'm forgetful as hell. Came to duplex last nite, I had left the door open the whole day.
I bought a memo pad, i right stuff down now.Still haven't put the laundry away:)But I have a crap load of goals.Ha
Kid cnslr left me a message, has me concerned I quote"AYK you made the right decision not to come last night.Talked to D for an hr ur ex, loved that term, for a 1/2 hr.Curious to get your side of the story, want to see you by yourself, before I decide who will bring D to her next session."
Now let me get this right, I am not divorced yet, I have maxed a cc to file motions so I can get my kids into counseling and she's curious about my side of story?!
Yeah I know what happened, like what's been happening, wife has twisted something and D has followed suit.
Months ago, I told everyone not keeping or passing on emails or texts. That went out the window in December, forwarded emails to atty and the shrink. The texts though I deleted 'em, I'm saving the good ones now. Jan I started documenting not a novel, but quotes that the kids have said, etc.
My wife bar none has talked smack on me to everyone, she and I knew mutually. What really bothers me though is what all she has told the kids and how she has handled herself with me in front of the kids.
That is why I was struggling when you all said breathe, etc. It really was and is, what happened to her, bring her back, it wasn't that bad, it was actually pretty good.
But even then she and D's relationship and her being lax with D and hanging with that neighbor bothered me.
So I'm not angry at her for this MLC, but I am for how she is D's best friend vs parent and breaks every boundary I try to make and then really if I had pulled the same s**t with a female anything, she would've filed the moment she saw the first text.
D and I had a WIN/WIN tonight, but she is so mean, asked her on a date tomorrow nite, berated me, it's something everybody but my wife all go "OH D" as they're mouths drop at how mean she is.Loved how D said well at least we got this figured out, could've stayed with mom tonite, said btw, did you tell your mom where you were until you decided to tell me, she said yes, said tell you what next time on my nights or days, I don't know where your at and your mom does or if I call and text and you don't respond back, I pay for your phone, i can choose not to.I also don't make plans for you or ok stuff you want to do when you should be with mom right, exactly give me the same courtesy. I used my soft voice and I used the U of mngt,just afraid how long this post is going to be the moment i hit submit.
Ok anyway seriously, we know what the mlc'er is doing.
what are otherways not to prolong this for them. Because I have 6 mo's worth of pushing to undo.
