Also it just hit that W hasn't started to cold/distant pullback yet. I am shocked by this. Expected it to start early in the week, but it hasn't at all...in fact, kind of the opposite. last night she looks for shirts for me and sends me all kinds of TMs while out shopping, today she offers to bring me lunch (which I accepted) and then she actually did and was actually walking it over to me vice making me come get it from her office. I am still expecting/anticipating the pull back to ensure W doesn't send the "wrong message/signal" (she has used these words before) to me (in her mind), but maybe that won't happen till we actually arrive.
Maybe because I'm still not convinved the EA is busted is the reason I am getting no satisfaction/hope from these things, and maybe because I am working so hard on getting back to not allowing her actions/moods impact my happiness.
I just have to keep this personal momentum going...
Or maybe it is busted enough for her to pour some of that old EA energy into an EA with YOU. It almost sounds like she is extending some of that connection she might have had elsewhere before to you now. Maybe she's wondering what YOU will do with it. Just a thought. Greek
Me45 H46 T25 M22 S21 & 19 D13 Separated and filed 8/08 Moved home 11/08
