I agree with that! I read that ... i dont know if it is a poem ... several years ago when my XB broke up with me. I found it and it made sense then, but I dont know that I truly understood it until today. I actually got the decree finalized, and it will go in the mail tomorrow.
At this point, I honestly don't mind if I don't ever hear from him again. I am sure at some point I will, but somehow there was an awakening for me, an understanding that it was okay to love myself more. I don't feel as if I have wasted any time because I really needed this time to heal. But somehow I think that once this divorce is final, it will allow me to really put it all behind me and move on.
I think you are right, Nik, we are on the same path. It is probably a little easier for me because SG and I did not have children, so once this is over, there really is no reason for us to keep in contact. Of course, I still have to deal with him over the next four years because of the bankruptcy, but otherwise I cannot foresee any reason for us to speak.
Only this time, I am letting go with love, with a sense of accomplishment, as strange as that sounds. I am not angry at him anymore, and I wish him the best.
It feels good. Every time today that I felt myself start to slide, I just remembered the words my friend said to me last night and it really helped. Maybe that is the key. I know DR says you need to take care of yourself, and we have all said the words to each other. But I don't know that we truly know how to do that until we can really separate ourselves from our spouses. Now that I have begun to do that, in the blink of an eye life is enjoyable again, even if he is not in it.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
