Aren't we allowed to feel like cra* at times? Do your best not to let it take over. I've read that it is easier for men to do that, so considering how cra*ppy I feel, you must feel like a more profane word!
But you WILL get past it. Reading your posts, I've felt stronger and more committed. Use your energy for yourself, Flowmom, and you'll just keep improving day by day. If not now, God Willing it will be soon.
I wonder if V-Day (sounds a lot like D-Day, doesn't it?) is hard on him, too. Maybe it isn't a date, maybe just inability to cope. See - pass on your bad feelings on to his life and presto - feeling better already, right!?
