Running out of time.

[Cie la vie]

That lasts about six months to a year and that's when maybe remorse starts to set in.
I probably shouldn't care but man I want her to taste the pain of this decision with full force. But I think it is quite possible she may feel nothing. In six months the D will certainly have been long since finalized baring some unforseen change in the process and I don't mean her deciding to R.

I'm going to put a call into her older sister over the weekend just to say hi. My W's immediate family is like family to me. I've been a bit disappoint in the fact that I haven't heard from any of them since the [censored] hit the fan. Save for one call from the older sister, but that wasn't entirely unsolicited. Not sure what to make of it.

I honestly don't really know what is going on in my wife head, particularly now that she has moved out. She radically distanced herself from me after she filed. I haven't put a single call into her since she moved out over two weeks ago and she hasn't called me except to discuss children and moving issues. There has been virtually zero casual conversation.

It seems to me that in most of the sitches I keep up with here, people have much more communication between eachother than in mine. Albeit not necessarily postive communication. I've been on the NC plan for a long time and she seems to be following the same plan.

I'm really trying my best to focus entirely on me and the kids and just let her go. Not surprisingly the more may head gets wrapped up in what she is up to or what she might be thinking the more down in the dumps I get.

The only thing that hasn't happened yet is dating and I'm feeling more confident that will happen once I'm actually single.

I wish I was in a mindset to start getting after it but I'm not there yet. It may be one of things where I just need to get that first one and I'm off to the races. Will see.