Thanks pigskin. It's just that I've had my own needs put on a backburner for so long that I do get sick of it sometimes. I think we all do. I still get triggers of her and the OM (old man) working together, laughing and flirting. Not as much as when this first comes up, but they do come up.
Then I think of her talking to his W and planning this party and think that she's got some nerve to do this to her face.
So last night I called to talk to my Ds. My W starts with the small talk and I just end it. I told her that I might have to work on a Saturday that I have the girls (the same day as the OM's going away party) and asked if she could watch them if she didn't have plans. Just to see what her answer would be. She said no problem. So I don't know if she is going to the party or not. These mind movies are killin' me.
Oh well. I didn't mention to her anything about the OM's party. I even debated cancelling our Valentine's dinner together, but thought I'd be the bigger man and go ahead with it.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.