Just want my H back

[avermont]

Hey HHH, LFA and 25-

I am thinking that HHH's question about fighting the D/not fighting applies a bit to my sitch about selling/not selling house to X.

If I fight for the house, it is very "more of the same." Closes all doors. Tears down any possible roads.

If I let go of the house, it is something different. Leaves us in an amicable place.

I had truly thought I was "done," but with the house issue, all sorts of "what ifs" and "maybes" are back to torture me.

If we have a horrible court fight, if he "loses" the house, he will hate me forever.

In theory--I don't care, or hopefully soon I won't care. God willing I get to that place.

I need to do what is best for me, but I am suddenly in an emotional whirlwind of--is there something I can do that would be DB'ish?

I was reading some of Gucci's threads--trying so hard to get my head/heart to a WAW place. I know I can ACT WAW.

But fighting over the house seems to me, at any rate, PERHAPS to indicate to X that I am not WAW? That I care something about the R?

When really, what I want the house for is a comfortable place with tenants that cover the mortgage. (and yes, we know, to keep X from moving OW in)

Any thoughts?