My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

I am terribly sorry that you are so low. Never feel bad for reaching out and please don't feel that you ever have to take it back.

I know this will seem hard right now but you need to create a vision of what you want your life to be like. Then we need to figure out the first step to get you there. It seems that you havethe basics and are running on fumes yourself. Do you enjoy reading or walking or painting. Finding that one thing can help you feel better. I promise.

I often think of Princess Diana. When she was in so much pain herself, she reached out to those hurting more and it helped ease her own pain. I will admit, I don't know what I would have doen without my oldest two boys. I shouldn't have allowed myself to lean on them but they came to me often for themselves and together we got through this mess.

I bet you will get through this too, lean a way dear lady.

hugs, kat

Kat--I think you've hit on something brilliant in its simplicity here (in bold above). I really haven't thought about what I want life to be like--I've just focused on getting thru this a day at a time. Actually, I thought I had the life I wanted--marriage, a family, a job doing ministry. And I've focused so much on the "shock and awe" of losing it all at once that I haven't moved forward. If I've given it any thought, I've very quickly gotten to "I can't afford it" because--well, money is very tight. And my energy is very low--I need to max out my antidepressants, I think.

As far as reaching out to those who need help--I work in an inner-city school. And with my co-worker who just had the stroke and the leukemia diagnosis. I kinda do that daily, so I think I've got that piece in place. I just need to have a dream again, something to look forward to and to work toward. Thank you for mentioning this, and saying it with kindness.