Hi di- I am happy to chime in on your thread whenever I can offer anything of value...which may not be that often since I'm on the rollercoaster too.
We met my H for lunch yesterday and he brought his business partner who I have never liked and like him even less after he cheated on his W and is now getting a D. I thought it was strange that my H would invite him. Anyway, lunch was fine, I did my best to be friendly but I am sure that my H could tell I wasn't completely comfortable. When we were leaving my H told me he would call me later and I said okay. Well, of course, I never heard from him. I am sooooo tired of this. I'm trying not to have any expectations but there is a part of me that can't stop from thinking that my H is figuring this out and it going to tell me he wants to be with me. It is hard for me not to push for that. I hate this. I cannot be his friend except from a distance. I wonder what is going through his head when I don't see him and it is even worse when I do. This morning I came so close to picking up the phone to call him and tell him that we need to proceed with the D. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that I have a C appointment this morning.
Why does my H try to be my friend when he knows it isn't okay with me? I don't want his crumbs.
