Your reading and learning here and elsewhere should have told you this by now: You forgive her for YOU, not for her.
You can have foolish, excessive, useless pride, or you can have peace as a better person. Forgiveness is not excusing nor condoning by the way; it's not even about forgeting.
Forgiving might indeed give some peace and make me a better person...but I dont feel like I'm ready to forgive yet. The wound is still too fresh so to speak and every day or so it seems like something else comes along to open it up more.
After my message last night my ex texted me twice and called me twice. I didnt respond to any of it...but she must have been really affected by it to not just ignore it like she has messages in the past when she's been working.
Assuming she comes to get D3 in about 45 mins...I'm interested to see what kind of state she's going to be in...and how I'm going to deal with her questions if she has any.
