C-bart, It sounds like you have made months of progress on yourself or at least some realizations about yourself. I will have to go for now my D13 wants to talk which is good but it is late. I will have to catch you tomorrow or on the alt on the weekend. Hang in there.
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.