Everything else is going really well...so well it is almost scary. I have a job I love, and it pays well so I don't really have to stress about money so much anymore. D14 is doing so much better in school. She is loving it here, and has so many friends. In the grand scheme of things, moving home was the best decision I have made through all of this, and there is no chance I will ever move back. I have learned that I cannot control D24 and D23, and so our respective relationships continue to grow immensely.
But I am so damned lonely. I really have tried to get out there, to try to think of dating, and I just don't want to. And yet I hate being by myself. But I also don't want to date for the sake of dating.
Everything else is perfect. And I know that I will heal from this. I don't know that the finalization of the divorce will do it, but I think that at least once I know that is done, it is one more thing I can grieve and put behind me. I just really miss the SG. And I am not even sure why.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
