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[awest1217]

Well, I figured out tonight what my deal is, which I am sure the rest of you already did. I am scared. I am scared to open up one more time to just get hurt again. It has happened so many times and recently too many times in a row that I just don't know if I can get myself to open up. I know that love can't come without a risk, but when you have been burned sooo many times, you learn not to touch the stove. I have been hurt so many times that I don't know if I can talk myself into opening up to him again. It doesn't help that H said "I want to come home, but I am scared I will hurt you again or still". There is absolutely no reassurance at all in that sentence. Then the ranting. I just don't have it in me to go another round just to get hurt again, especially since he is not doing anything on the OW front. They are still talking, I would be still seeing each other, and he sees absolutely nothing wrong with that.

So the question is...do I risk getting hurt again and let him come home believing he will keep his end of the bargain, or just turn around and say enough is enough? Not sure and not really sure how to go about finding the answer.