W2S you are right I have moved on enormously. I know that deep down and I'm proud of what I've achieved. Now I just want to be able to share it with someone.

BM you also are absolutely right. However that doesn't take away the fact that he made me feel alive and I think that is what I am really grieving over.

I went, alone, to the opera tonight. I've never been before but I think I will go again as I enjoyed it.

Me 43
XH 45
M 2.7.88
Divorce 7.10.09
Kids D20,S17 & D15