I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

TTA,
You are right about having H to thank for pushing you to change. I am SOOOOO grateful for the things I have resolved about myself during this time. I NEVER would have come this far if H hadn't walked out and forced me to take a hard look at myself. I am 10X better as a person than I was. IC has helped me deal with my issues and I'm well on my way to being whole in that sense. I feel like "me" again. I feel like I'm strong enough to do anything or take on anyone. I don't think I would be where I'm at if it weren't for the shock of D and losing H. Sometimes you have to lose the the important things in life to see how important they really were to you. I have a totally different attitude about relationships and what makes them work. I now understand the amount of WORK it takes. I WILL BE a fantastic partner for someone, someday. I just don't know if H will ever get himself to the point of being a fantastic partner. He's running away like a scared little boy. I think I'm losing faith that he can change. But I'll guess I would give him the chance if he asked.... I'm too committed to my MARRIAGE not to.

Thanks for the support!!

(((HUGS)))

T