I'm starting to see the great possibilities to starting new now - the potential of finding a new partner and developing a new relationship. I'M such a better partner now than I ever could have been before.
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talia-
i'm dealing with a lot of the same feelings you are...wanting your H back, wanting to be in love like you used to be. my situation seems to be different from yours in a few aspects, but for both of us, NO MATTER WHAT, we'll come out of this better, stronger, and - like you said - a better partner than you could have ever been before. and if we're left with NOTHING else than that, i take comfort in knowing that at least i'll have my H to thank for that. as much as it hurts and as much as i hate all of this, i'd never be on the path to realizing my full SELF and seeking the happiness that i know god has in store for me.
i told my H before he moved out that as much as this all hurt, i had to thank him for calling me out on some behaviors that i didn't even see within myself. i was so busy calling the kettle black, i'd never noticed what color I was! so. if i had to love and lose in order to REALLY learn how to love, i know i'll be ok in the end. and i know you will be, too.
(((talia)))
Me30 H29 M2.5 T5 H moved out 1/23/2010 H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010 ...feeling hopeless