My Story...possible "grass is greener" scenario?

[flowmom]

nsw, I can relate you how you're feeling about coparenting. I love my children, but I don't relish that (like you) I have 15 years of coparenting R ahead of me to negotiate with H. I wish that I could really feel that I could GAL with total freedom from having to deal with H.

But this is a turning point for you nsw. You failed to commit to the mother of your child, but if you fail to commit to your D, it will be a mistake that you will almost certainly regret for the rest of your life. And you, like all of us, will have to live with the consequences of your actions. All we can do is try to evolve and make the best of a life that is not a clean slate. Because you get to the point in life where you can't escape your past choices. That's part of maturity and the life stage that we're in or entering.