I'm asking my H to put the kids to bed by himself for the first time! And I'm actually going out to an evening event for the first time in 4 years. I've done all of the nighttime parenting for 6 years.
I'm going to a social event with other folks in my field. I'm not as excited about it as when I first made the plan. I'm not feeling confident in my career or as a person, so I'm feeling nervous about interacting with people who are mostly (or all) distant acquaintances.
I think it's good to push myself though. It meets three of the threads of my prekids life that I want to resume: 1. expanding my social network 2. my career and 3. enjoying men as friends/allies/colleagues. Going to a pub is definitely not a typical activity for me in recent years, so I hope I can do something out of my comfort zone and gain some confidence from that. I'm reading a book about body language and I'm going to try to avoid using closed/insecure body language that would probably be a default for me when I am feeling like this.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
