I am confused to whether its normal for me to be feeling the way I am right now. I swear I was more "okay" with this divorce a month ago than I am now and I am wonderinging why that is. Now it seems like I feel this enormous loss over everythhing and it seems like I can't go anywhere without seeing something thats a reminder of our lives together.
If this is just normal I don't want to confuse it with some intent or desire to get back together. If its right that we are never to be together again I want to seriously disengage. Some days I want to be nice to her and some days I just want to treat her with studied politeness and like a business associate--polite, friendly, and in no way personal. It tends to PO her when I do the latter. On the other hand I don't want her to think when I am nice to her it somehow means I am okay with what she has done because I am not.
I am feeling very schizophrenic right now.
Thanks for any opinions.
I'm not sure i want to be married to you anymore - 8-30-09 ILYBINILWY = 9-4-09 Busted her on a date 9-19-09 Separation - 9-21-09 Divorce - 10-9-09 S15 S13 S10 M - 18 Years
