I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[Quart9]

Thanks puppy. It's crazy man - yesterday was the first time W and I had seen each other in almost a month. We actually had a pretty good time together. For the past 2 weeks she would hardly talk to me on the phone and since we have been separated most our contact has been done by text.

I am/was hoping for more positive meetings after yesterday with the thought of it rekindling her interest in me. I didn't pressure her for another meeting but she suggested another one (though it is to meet with our tax guy - haha).

I'm still new to all of this so maybe all of that was wishful thinking and counters DB'ing.

I will come up with a plan though. See much of her recent communications with me included her confirming she wants a divorce. She has drug her feet following through with it. So I guess what I am saying is: besides the fear I have of her (as you say)and besides the risk of coming out of this without a place to live - forcing my way back into our apt brings the biggest risk of sending her over the edge and straight to filing for the divorce. From previous vibes I have received from her that seems very likely.