OK... I am just trying to breathe, and I need some help with perspective here.

I just found out that OW is getting a very public, very prestigious award for her work with AA and helping people. This is a community service award that gets publicized very broadly in the geographical area we live in... newspapers, TV interviews etc.

I am in shock, I am shaking....

How can there be any justice in this world? This adulteress get public acknoweldgement as this wonderful person while I sit in secrecy and shame and I AM INNOCENT??????

I am seriously crashing to a dark place emotionally. I am struggling....

Somebody help me see there is something to hang on to here.