My H showed up to the game. I obviously kept is light and friendly however I did have the pesky little questions running through my mind but I didn't go there. Yesterday when we were texting, I told my H about my father's seizure. He seemed truly concerned. I told him that my father has been talking less since that happened and that I had been thinking of contacting him to see if he would go and talk with him. My H seems to be able to get my father to talk more than most people. Anyway, my father was at my D's game last night and my H asked him to lunch today and included me in the invitation. I'm not sure if I really want to go. As I have said before, I can't go back to the way things were. I have no problem being friendly with him from a distance but I don't want to pretend that this is all okay anymore. Does that make sense? I suppose I will go to lunch and leave it at that. Last night, I could tell my H still wants to be in my life and I am sure he would be fine to go back to the way things were but I can't.
