My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

Your life will NOT be always this painful.

I assume it feels as a lot of time has gone by and you probably thought that, by now, things would be a lot better and when you are down, things look equally painful or not much better, BUT, 2 years is really not a long time to come to terms with the end of your life the way you knew it, to break down in pieces, get back on your feet again, regroup, take care of practicalities, accept the new reality and face it. I mean, you have come a long way and you need to remind yourself that.

I am struggling too with being pessimistic. It's very hard to keep a positive attitude when you are hitting a low or are tired of fighting. But it is critical that you do. You have got to tell yourself, things will be ok in the end, if they are not Ok, it is not the end yet...
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K

PS I know you didnt ask for a reply, hope you dont mind...

I don't mind!

2 years does seem like a long time to be this crisis-driven. I truly don't know how much longer I can keep taking life one breath at a time! This is simply survival, it's not living. I'm so frustrated at my complete inability to build any kind of support system over this time--I have even less support now than I had at the time of the bomb, and the loneliness is just crushing me. If this is a poor attitude I apologize--it just doens't feel like I've come very far at all, and knowing there's no light at the end of the tunnel day after day is wearing me down. Yeah, I'm tired of fighting, of being overwhelmed by my emotions--which seem to come from nowhere.