As much as I hold onto my dream of making myself attractive and reeling my friend in to become my wife again, I realize I am approaching the problem from all the wrong angles.
I need to stand up for myself and free myself of obstacles standing in the way of living and thinking for myself.
I just took the leap of faith and told me wife that our present arrangement is not fair to me as it constitutes living the same life which we both have established was less than fulfilling for both of us.
I delivered my peace and held my head up high not fearing the outcome.
She teared throughout our conversation - either because she realizes that she cannot have her cake and eat it too or because she sees that living a selfish existence presnets tough challenges ahead of her.
