I meant for him anyway, I just don't think he wants it. I'm ok, despite the fact H has traded in his family for this life, involving himself with these types of women. I guess the part that is hard to swallow is the fact that he isn't even fighting for me. After 13 years, and all we've been through. But ....I know the guilt and what he has done to me kills him. He's told me that over and over.
I'm doing ok though. I'm stronger than I thought. Preparing to see a lawyer, opened my own checking yesterday and divided up our bills accordingly.
