OP- I am scared of the LS and D. Can you elaborate on how to turn the fear into a shield?
It is through detachment. Go back to the detach link and study it. NC does help with detachment. Also I found that IC helps, along with AD's. I have been on lexapro and it has really helped me with the "stress". None of these things make the situation go away but it makes you able to deal with them.
You can not fear the LS or the D. It is only a piece of paper. A piece of paper can not physically harm you. Your H will try to use your fear against you. That is why you can not let him control you that way. When you do not fear it then it is less likely to happen.
All of the advice that you are getting is good. Reread it and try to put it all together as a package.
We have all been where you are and our advice is to try to help you get out of the place that you are in. The sooner you can get out of that place (in your head). The sooner you can move on with your life and start living again.
