how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

by the way, OTM...my H didn't say anything about me not moving. he did offer to paint and spackle when i move out next weekend, but we'll split the cost on the supplies.

i've painted enough walls to know that i HATE painting so if he's willing to do it, so be it.

he knows i plan to move a week from this saturday. he told me that living on his own hadn't accomplished what he'd hoped it had (which was to get some physical space between us so he could focus on his new job, which he hasn't been able to do), so...even if he'd asked me to move in with him, i think i'd still need to do at least 2-3 months in my own place while we moved forward. but that's a big if.

i really hope he finds a good IC. i know how much damage the wrong one can do.