Sorry I've been absent, I didn't realize you had a new thread.
I'm feeling like I need to go back and reread your initial thread so I'll get to that tomorrow.
Here's my pep talk for tonight:
Yep, I've had the "wish he were dead" thoughts too. It would just make things so much easier. Sigh. But Gno is right, just don't do anything to further that along.
Where's your PMA? What GAL activities are you doing these days? That's the place to start. List all the positives in your future, even if they're just maybes. What can you do tomorrow and this weekend to put a smile on your face? It's so much easier to deal with the crap when you're happy about the other things going on in your life.
Don't get stuck trying to figure out why. Accept that you will never know why and don't think about it. When your mind goes there start singing your favorite song.
Let's just get you a bit happier first, then we'll move on to self analysis.
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g
