So, haven't seen/talked to H since 1/31. Emailed a bit regarding kid updates(home sick/school stuff) and tax stuff. Today H cme to the house while I was at work and took his mail. He sent me an email with no message-only the header.."Got my mail. Thanks"
Message from his lawyer to mine is that H wants to spend as much time with our daughter's as he can even though he no place to have them stay over. His lawyer's suggestion was to email me,which he did today, to ask about taking them to dinner tonight.
Since I didn't check my email til after dinner, I left a voicemail message for H saying as such and asking him if he wanted me to take the tax forms to the accountant.
He just called and said he had understood I wanted to look over the tax stuff and he thought that I had previously offered to take it to the acountant so he felt angry that I asked him if he wanted me to take it to the accountant...OY VAY!
At least he used an "I feel" statement!
He said he is taking an 8 week course on mindfulness/meditation..kind of surprising, but can only do him good.
Anyway, he got of the phone quickly as he was angry...Haven't spoken to him him in 10 days and I still get anger...
I really am feeling kind of done. The missing him moments are less frequent. Have felt anger from him for so long, I think that's all I'm going to get. Why would I want to be closer to that?
The lawyer stuff just stresses me out.
Not knowing if I'll be working to just support myself the kids and him-with nothing left over and zero savings stresses me out.
A brand new 2 hour commute to work each day starting Monday, stresses me out.
Would like it to be over and ust move on with my life. I don't think H will ever look back with regret, and if he does it will be years from now and he wouldn't let me know if he did.
Just all makes me so very, very sad. Guess I'm still in mourning.
M44 H46 T21 Married 16y D14 D12 Bomb 12/08(EA), (PA/Separation)1/09 to 5/09 Home/MC 5/09 to 12/09 Leaves 12/09 Files for Divorce Divorce final 6/30/10.
