She must be seeing a lawyer...what now?

[Awoken]

Arrgg. Very frustrating. My flight to NY may have been canceled. Two of the other musicians flights have been canceled. We hope to all get there eventually. I'm really looking forward to this weekend as a chance to clear my head.

[Awoken]

Another note. I purchased some valentine's day cards for my kids. They were large, with lots of room to write inside. I wrote both of them pretty long letters inside.

I told them in detail what it meant to me to be a father.
I told them I told them how unique and special they each are.
I told them I knew how hard the last 3+ months had been.
I told them that no matter what happens, I will ok, and we will be ok. I will always be there for them.

I took them to dinnner to their favorite restaurant tonight, and surprised them with the cards, some cheesy target brand chocolates, and a small valentines gift for each of them. We've always done small gifts at valentines day, but I think we all sensed this was special.

They were both very touched by the cards, but of course showed it in different ways. D17 teared up and gave me a big hug. I think she looked a little relieved. Maybe that's just my hope.
S13 grunted a simple thanks, and diverted his attention to the box of chocolates. However, after dinner at blockbuster, S13 pulled me aside and said "dad, you know I don't like to talk about feelings at all, but thanks for the card."

It was a good night I think.

[flowmom]

Awwww, that's sweet. I wish V-day would disappear this year, but I'm going to smile and make a big fuss about it with the kids, because it's a celebration of love, and love is pretty important.

Sorry to hear about your plans for the weekend being shaky though.

[Awoken]

Thanks flowmom,

Well, the agent just called and my flight is still on.
Thank goodness.

I hope you do make a fuss over V day for your kids! You deserve it.

[Awoken]

AGAIN! Arrrggggghhh.

I'm in New York performing. I should be having a great time. It's beautiful here; and pretty cold. The gig is going pretty well. It's just that the musio making really brings my emotions straight to the surface. I can't pretend when I'm playing.

I'm in a great hotel room (a suite!), and I can't help but think that if things were different, I would be here with my W.

I've had a couple of women want to spend time with me here, but honestly I'm just feeling too sad (and it's too soon).

I don't know what to say; I guess I feel like V day is going to be a tough day for ne. I need to prepare for it. I hope my friends here are gonna do ok too.

[givingitmyall]

Get your focus ahead on the positives, not looking backward.

Truly enjoy all that is around oyu this weekend. And find some things to do for you. Be selfish. It's ok.

[Gardener]

Awoken.
D17 and S13 truly do have a wonderful dad!

[Gardener]

Awoken, I play no instruments, but I always though that this

It's just that the music making really brings my emotions straight to the surface. I can't pretend when I'm playing.

I've always asssumed that emotion and pain adds to and amplifies the truth that is manifested in the performance (this, of course, coming from a talent-less non- musician, but one who knows and feels what he's experiencing/feeling).

I'm in a great hotel room (a suite!), and I can't help but think that if things were different, I would be here with my W.

I can certainly appreciate that!

I've had a couple of women want to spend time with me here, but honestly I'm just feeling too sad (and it's too soon).

I strongly feel the soon too part, too.

don't know what to say; I guess I feel like V day is going to be a tough day for ne. I need to prepare for it. I hope my friends here are gonna do ok too.

We'll all be fine. Sorry, I didn't make it to gig, tonight (see msg in .alt.)
But I'll spend some Valentine's day with you tomorrow!. We can commiserate. And celebrate.)

[Gardener]

Awoken,
My reply disappeared!

I'll try again,

Thank you so much for tonight. Dinner and conversation were wonderful, though too short by far. I felt like we were two old friends!

The show was great. You are one talented and personable musician. Rene is a natural.

Good to see you after the show, too. Thank you for introducing me to Rene.

Hey, in one night, I GALed, 180ed (Jazz), did something impulsive, got out of my comfort zone and got to meet a true (no-longer-cyber) friend!

Hey, I could get used to this.

[flowmom]

I hope you got through V-day OK, awoken.