how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

thanks, OTM. i really tried to keep my cool while he was here. of course i just wanted to melt into his arms and tell him everything was going to be ok, but i didn't...i think he sees i'm making positive changes in my life, hopefully that could help give him an extra boost to get his as$ in gear, too.

i'm sure he felt some guilt, but i calmly expressed to him that i was confused at how he could tell me he was sure this was what he wanted 2 weeks ago and now be at a point where he's not sure. i said, part of me wants to say, you COULD be home with me and the dog, getting a good night's sleep and not being alone, had you not decided to move out, so i don't really know what you want me to say. i understand that you felt that you had to move out, but at the same time, it still really hurt me that you did.

who knows where this will go. he texted again to say it was worth the trek out here in the blizzard to see me. i guess only time will tell, and i'll just keep working on me.

it did feel SO GOOD to hug him again, though...