I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[Quart9]

Thanks again to all of you for your replies. W and I just met for lunch so she could give me my mail. She has stopped wearing her wedding rings so I took mine off before we met today. I remained cool confident. I made it a point not to get into any R talks and she tried to discuss a cheap way she found to get a divorce and I told her I would not talk about it.

We had a couple of laughs and I joked with her like I used to. We had no discussion about OM or that situation.

A couple of things that bugged me:
1. She said she had paperwork that I could sign to remove my name from the lease of our apt - she did not produce it during our meeting and I made no indication I would sign (and had she of produced it I would not have signed it).

2. She said her Mom and new Step-Dad are begging her to move back to FL - she says does not want to do that, but she has a girlfriend that lives at a beach about 45 min from us who is considering buying a house and she might move out of our apt to go and live with her.

This scared me but I acted like it didn't affect me. Sure, I can have the cops escort me so I can move back in the apt, but what if she moves out? Can she take her name off of the lease without my consent? It will cost me about $1200 to break my lease where I'm @ now, but I won't be able to afford our lease there by myself. I feel like such an idiot now for moving out.

On top of this she hugged me (and it seemed like she didn't want to let go) and kissed me when we parted today. Is she messing with my head?