She texted me this later on yesterday in response to my text that I posted here earlier...
"It's not that I didn't "trust your changes" but by the time you decided to "change" you had already pushed me over the edge. And I did "care about you" or I wouldn't have put myself through hell for 15 years trying to make things work. Remember I was the one who always put the forth the effort first whenever we had a disagreement and I was the only one who apologized (even when it wasn't my doing) and I was the one who always said "I love you". I bet you didn't tell me that first 2 times the entire time we were together."
She is telling you what she wanted. This is gold. If you are still in the mode of wanting to reconcile, this is what I would say.
"I can see how me not telling you would hurt. I am sorry that I let my feelings go unsaid. I am going to say this for both of us, I did and do love you."
Then just be still.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
