Start of the end..

[antlers]

I realize that I am feeling still unworthy of my stbxw, and below her, and still feeling guilty for all the things I did to bring about the end to our R, and that keeps me 'stuck' I have to let go and forgive what I did, and focus on creating the best life I can.

I completely understand, and empathize, how you feel. I say this from my own experience. It's odd that we are so willing to forgive others, yet we have such a hard time forgiving ourselves! In truth, we should be just as willing to forgive ourselves, and put forth the required effort, as we are to forgive others!