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[avermont]

Yes, Pearl is totally right about my motives. About THEM, not about ME.

Working, working, working on that.

Bit of a tough day today: dumb session with IC yesterday (I can't wait til I have time to post about that!)sleepless night punctuated with one of the very few dreams about X:

We were in the house together. He put his arms around me and we danced a little bit. I was thinking--is this like the other DBers post--H gave a little hug today? but this is weird--it is too much. Then we sat and he was being very loving. And I thought--surely he wouldn't be all nice just to try and smooth talk me into selling the house? is this genuine?

And then sure enough, he more or less said: Sell me the house.

And I got MAD (remember, I haven't been feeling my anger) and YELLED at him and THREW things at him.

And then woke up and was sad from then til now.

Oh well. Is this a new phase--dreaming about him?

How is working out the edits on the S agreement going? You have my love and sympathy as you work through that--