I know, flowmom, really, that I am luckier than most--I do not HAVE to deal with X over children. How hard that must be, I can't even imagine.

I admire all the strength of the parents on these boards.

I am listening to all about clean slates, fresh starts, etc.

I am trying to get excited about new possibilities.

It ain't working yet, but I'm trying!

Me: 44
Him: 42
Together: 23 years; never married
Bomb: August 1, 2009
Affair since May 2009
Walk away; no conversation; no process