No it wasn't but I really wish it had been. It may have been extremely short lived but he was certainly the type of person I think I am looking for. I think what hurts most is that he knew from the off that it was only ever going to be a fling simply because he wants kids of his own but not with someone who already has them.
I have never had an obsessive nature in my life but this is getting to be a very big obession for me and I need to get over it before it destroys me. Trouble is in the same way I used to think about XH every day (as you would expect after 20 yrs + of M) I now think about this guy every day, not on purpose but something seems to happen every day that reminds me of him. I feel like a stupid school girl with a crush but deep down I know for me it is more than that. The fantasy is never going to come to fruition though and that is the bit I am struggling with.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
