What should I do?

[Jack_Three_Beans]

Jack she seems to be reconnecting with the kids now, which is a good thing. The only one that she is not connecting with is me.

Typical MLCer reconnect with YOU last.

I kind of feel like I am being stomped on.

Feel different. We 'feel' because of what we precieve. Change your perspective. You a mouse in a cage? Or a man in charge of his own destiny?

She contacts the OM on the cell phone like nothing. I am trying to GAL and detach but I find myself asking...then why am I still married and why have I not filed.

This is you choice, come a day when you realize your marriage is YOUR choice and not all hers. This is your choice, and good for you. Stand and suck up the damage, smile and expect more.

I guess I still hold out hope that she will "come around" and I know that this is the "worst" part of the "for better or for worst" statement but this is really hard. Does anyone have any words of encouragement?

: ) You have what it takes brother man. Most people don't get that part. You made a vow stick to it, honor it, as long as you can. Of course it sucks.

As for lyrics...


Always, known in, all my time,
A little left of center now
Reflect as I realize,
That all I need is to find the middle pillar path to sit like the sun by a star in the sky and
just be.
Sinners, casting stones at me

I... I stand, not crawling, not falling down
I... I bleed the demons that drag me down
I... I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (the center), not falling down (of calms within the eye)
I... I'll bleed, (for no one), The demons, (but myself), that pull me down (for me and no one else)

Goodbye, sunshine, I've put it out again, sad
I'm over, personalities, conflicting, I don't need you, or anyone, but me, I'll just be, living
my own life
I feel my glowing center grow, infecting
I feel alive
Shovel dirt over lime, plant it in myself to sit like a seed under covers of earth and just be
Sinners, pointing fingers at me

I... I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (by myself), not falling down
I... I bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myself), that drag me down
I... I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (the center), not falling down (of calms within the eye)
I... I'll bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myself), that pull me down (for me and no one else)


Find something that fuels you Eric. Like a hard pounding song that makes your foot hit the gas in the car on a long road, find something that inspires you not to quit.

Get rid of the sappy crappy love songs on your radio stations...

Time to soak damage.

Time to cowboy up.

Time to roll.