Emotionally I'm feeling better than the other day. The IC definitely is helping me to figure out what self care looks like for me right now: not telling myself negative stories all day long, not having negative conversations with myself.
I've been having brutal problems with procrastination on doing billable work lately. It's partly because the nature of my billable work right now is not very engaging (resurrecting a "dead" project, doing revisions, etc.). But even more important, my sister helped me to see that my mind is afraid of "losing" my H/M if I stop thinking about it to concentrate on work. She suggested that I start my work with telling myself that I can hold the people who I care about in my heart while I am doing my work.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
