I should add....maybe this is normal...but..Robx and Gno, i really don't feel like trying to have sex with her at this point. Maybe fear of further rejection, but also , the "desire" is low. Maybe the AD med??
uggg!!!
"I really don't feel like"
STOP!
That's how you've been operating all this time, I feel scared, I feel weak, I feel ineffectual, I feel small, etc. etc. etc.
And that's what made you LOOK & ACT unattractive.
How about some discipline and doing things not because you feel like doing them but because you know you have to do them: being calm, confident and decisive.
That's why you're in your current situation, because you "feel" too much.