Seeking,
As someone who has/is on both sides of the MLC let me tell you those feeling are real. I remember feeling exactly the same thing about myself. Less than a man more of a function. Its amazing what a mind can do to itself.

You have got to be very careful here. The only analogy I can give you is of someone sinking in quick sand. If you panic and try and pull him out you will get sucked down with him. Your are no good to anyone standing in the same hole. Go look for some sticks and ropes(self improvements) but for God's sakes stay away from the hole.

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Me-41
W-39
M-15 yrs T-17 yrs
D-12
S-9
S-8
B 5/08
S 1/09