it does feel good to exercise, and since i'm pretty much stuck inside all day because of the blizzard, i think i'll hit the gym again today. i can only hope i'm heading towards being happier and stronger. sometimes i feel like, yes, i can do this! other times i backslide and cry into my pillow that i just want my H to come home. i know everyone goes through that.

deep down i KNOW that no matter what happens with my H and i that i will survive, i will become stronger, happier and closer to my faith because of all of this. but getting to that deep down place and REALLY letting go of the fear and anxiety and sadness is the hard part!

Me30 H29
M2.5 T5
H moved out 1/23/2010
H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010
...feeling hopeless