Getting Tired of Trying- any advice?

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Hi Rhody,

Glad you found the forums/Sorry you need to be here.

I read your entire post. You've been through some tough stuff already, and overall is sounds like you are handling yourself really great despite some awful circumstances.

After reading everything, this is what I picked up the most on:

I deserve to be with someone who loves me, someone who is there for me when I most need them.

But then you said:

Just afraid of reporting her at this point as that might be the act that shuts down h's willingness to even try to work on our relationship.

Believe me, I understand this conflict of thoughts and emotions. I've read many times here in the forums how fear controls and stops us from taking action when we most need to. I'll be interested in what the others say, but I think you need to go ahead and report the therapist. Not because you are trying to punish H or her, but because it is the right thing, and you are standing up against adultery, standing up for your marriage.

From what I've read in your post, your H has responded the most when you have stood up the most for yourself.

Hang in there.