Coach, I had an 'aha' as I was reading BBJ's statement about giving up the Superhero cape. I think I get it now. It's okay to just be me. I don't have to entertain the crowd, or put on a happy face when things suck. I am just as happy being alone, as I am in a crowded room. All along, I've been trying to rescue the wrong people. And been deathly afraid of asking for what I truly need. I need help. I want off the roller coaster. I've learned how to tell the difference between I want (shiny objects) and I need (a loan or grant to retain atty). Right now, my friends, I need sleep.
